This week can be squeezed into one all-defining word: this week has been shite.
It all began with very bad news for me on the professional front and continued with an inexplicable amount of absolutely unreasonable and completely unprofessional bullpoop at work. And that’s me putting it nicely.
I’ve lost sleep over useless worrying because my life seems to be going around on a vicious circle that cannot be broken by anything. At least that’s how it feels like after solid 2 years of scrambling through inexplicable amount of misfortune. The only thing that keeps me sane at the moment is the weather being as gorgeous as it has been. Summer has in fact arrived! And that makes me so happy despite of everything.
On Tuesday I was swimming in extremely deep waters all day but when I got home in the afternoon, I grabbed my camera and directed my steps to Kadriorg Park and towards the secret Japanese garden there. And it was the best idea I have had for months.
They say that if you feel down go to the woods. I’ve discovered that to be very true indeed and I can now sign it one more time! The moment I arrived to the park, and found myself surrounded by flowers and green, green grass everywhere, my stress levels plummeted, my breathing settled down and I could feel every muscle in my body relax. Within seconds, just like that, I was OK again.
And then I discovered that I had arrived to the park on a perfect day: the cherry flowers were blossoming beautifully and there were pink trees all around the Japanese garden. As an amateur photographer this was the bestest opportunity for me to test my camera and try out some tricks of the trade that my mum’s friend recently taught me.
Even if I say it myself, the pictures turned out quite well. I was so happy downloading them onto my laptop and really seeing the development that has happened in my photographing skills compared to pictures taken last year in the same park. If something makes me happy it’s knowing that I learn and evolve. I love the feeling of achievement.
Spring is the time for new beginnings and big changes in nature and I truly hope, for my sake as much as for the sake of the people closest to me, that new beginnings and big changes will start to appear in my life as well. The sooner the better :)